So. I'm on the cusp of a truly life-altering event. And my feet are freezing. Tomorrow, a man will be calling about a fantastic job opportunity, and if the phone interview goes well, well, my life could see some dramatic changes. Scary, the safety net has never been so small, nor the paramedics so far away, changes.
And, you know, I'm frankly terrified.
I'm like, 51% sure I'm doing the right thing, so as CEO, I'm gonna do it, but the stockholders are NOT happy. Some of them are sure to sell, others will probably hold onto theirs, hoping to 'ride out the storm'.
I'm being a little too dramatical for just changing careers though, aren't I? Well, truth be told, I've been playing my cards very close to my vest. But we're down to the last raise, and it looks like the guy across from me is gonna call. Time to lay 'em on the table.
The job is in Kentucky. And whether this 'golden opportunity' pans out or not, I am moving down there, to 'hit that reset button'.
Life has just gotten too... different, for me here in NY. I've... burned some bridges, watched others rot away, there's one or two I definitely recall calling in air missions to service. Too many places that those bridges used to go to that I can't go to anymore around here, and the few places I can go are starting to feel like a prison. I need to find some new crossings. I need to find some strangers on the other side to make friends out of.
(See, I told you my super power was nailing my descriptive analogies.)
The friends I have here are important to me, but while I've been trapped in a prison of my own making, they've moved on, and intentionally or not, most of them have left me behind. To a large extent, even my family has moved on without me. And that is what I have to do. I have to get my life moving again. It stopped all those years ago, and when the starting gun fired, I just flinched a little and ignored it.
It's just too comfortable in this little prison I've called my life the last 16 years. Too safe to bother starting anything, too easy to give up on anything I do start, too easy to go back to the way it was. The way it is. My life has been far too simple for far too long, and I am atrophying from inaction, body and soul. It's time to kick it up a notch.
UPDATE-
Heh, that was a damned good interview, I thought. Then again, any interview you do in your bedroom, wearing underpants and a t-shirt, is bound to go well. A lot harder to relax in a strange place, face to face with strangers who have something you want, it is.
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I'm sure the first step has to be the hardest. I still say I can't believe that Bunnyman actually made the leap that he did. (Unlike you, he did it completely sight unseen.)
I don't want to push you, one way or the other, except to say that we're delighted and at the ready. Other than that, I want to note that sometimes, getting a fresh start is easier in a new place. Being single, in this case, may be a big advantage.
Crossing my fingers on the job thingy. Let us know how it went. Would also love to know how things went last Sunday, but a private email may work better there...
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